Feeling upended

With as much as I enjoy planning, it’s probably no surprise that I’d already printed the Q2 insert for my planner at the end of February. I’d started planning my goals for the second quarter of the year, based on what I’d been able to do in the first quarter and what I figured I’d be able to accomplish through the month of March. It probably goes without saying that I way overplanned, given the way I didn’t know things would be changing.

It’s hard to deal with that feeling of being derailed. Upended. Like I’d just set out the tea party and someone turned over the tray.  I had a lot of plans to share my goals and achievements this year, but it’s hard to do when I don’t know when the next time I can do a project will be.

Scraping together time to write and edit has been a real struggle, and the best thing I can do is to just… let go of everything else.

The bathroom can keep its one sample patch of paint until a later date, when I have time to paint it all. The cover for TSQ doesn’t need to be made until closer to the book’s release at the end of June. And for better or for worse, that release may end up being delayed.

I’m not a very go-with-the-flow person, so resigning myself to the fact that my big, ambitious plans for Q2 aren’t going to happen hasn’t been easy.  But it does give me time to really focus on finding what matters to me most, and after my family, my books top the list. They might not come out as fast as I’d wanted. The paperback for Serpent’s Tears might not be out on the same day as the digital edition. But those are small sacrifices when time is so slim that I can’t seem to do anything else.

I wish I had happier things to share, big projects achieved or the start of the series of short stories I want to write, but sometimes the happiest thing you can do is continue on.

Maybe instead of listing my goals, I’ll just track projects I get done instead. Right now, getting to them at all sounds like it’ll be a big achievement.

As for those short stories I mentioned… they’ll go out to my newsletter first, so make sure you sign up if you haven’t already. 😉

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